I can’t take my eyes off your style of movements. Each plan of action carried out with the most grace, expressing a need without being needy. I adore the way you complete yourself, the way you fit into your own shoes and the way you carry your heart in the words that you speak and the love you give day in an day out. You are the realest and will always be my idol.
Please stay with me until the fear of uncertainty goes away. I am much too attached to your presence, it is your light that I attach to. Even though it is sad for me, but your light is my darkness. I know your light will become my light when I learn how to shine my own. Until then, give me space, allow me to transform. Allow me to evolve, when the time is perfect, we will shine together and multiply consciousness. You are my biggest role model, I am your biggest fan. Support me, and when the time is right, shine with me because I know I will shine with you.
Delivering yourself to destiny is only deserved if you desire it. A long test, time and time again, lackluster. To most people this was okay, to others it was unacceptable. Barely achieving, a cheated destiny, a D- was passing, but wasn’t sharp enough to cut it. It was then that a whole heart could never be full without a full ambition and a full ambition was the first step to the script of destiny. The only policy is the truth to yourself, and wondering instead of doing is the opposite of the golden ticket. Delivering yourself to destiny is only deserved if you desire it.
You turn 100 years into one day, the way you look at me, your glassy eyes staring into my soul. The way you voice imitates a smooth melody when you tell me you love me. I do my best to brush against you when I can because the touch of any part of your body makes me feel like an angel floating high above. You make me want to watch you at every time of the day, if you were to leave I would follow, if you told me to jump I would leap. I would do anything for you because you turn a counterfeited 100 years into one genuine day.
In days of confusion and toxicity, you turned to the only truth you knew of. A truth that contained all the answers. A truth that was there for you when you needed it most. Although sometimes the path to your truth was not always a simple one, it always held the answers you needed. Your truth was far from outward, you couldn’t trust a thing from the outside. You truth was inward, lying inside of you day after day. Sheltering trust, forgiveness, and love in the purest form. The more you looked inward the more you grew. It was a stepping block when you needed to go higher and it was a your house when you needed safety. In days of confusion and toxicity, you turned to the only truth you knew of.
Very slowly I see an increase. An increase in work, in validation, in a cultivating love. I don’t want to stop but I am afraid to go. For the fear of success attacks the fear of failure, building a campfire in my mind, roasting marshmallows when it wants to. I deserve it all but the fear of success says otherwise. “You can’t have this” whispering in my mind supplying glimpses of doubt, adding wood to the fire. The space I have created in the moment shelters me and keeps me safe, grounding me from the fear of success, as I continue to whisper affirmations of greatness and my consciousness overrides the sabotaging feelings of doubt!
Bright enough to shake the woes from any self deprecating mind, the light was stronger, more radiant, and more beautiful than it ever was. Even as it set, it was relentless, piercing calmness and an even balance throughout ones body. Although it will come back tomorrow, will it be as bright? Will it coat ones skin in forgiveness like it did today? Will it remain as powerful while still being subtle? Hopefully it does, since this is all part of its plan. A plan from above, teaching the principles of forgiveness, allowing love to come forth and wash all that was toxic away. Renewing and catapulting one along their journey, like a baby’s greatest milestone, learning to crawl and talk. Cherish the sun for it gives gives and gives, asking for nothing, still shining the light. Bright enough to shake the woes from any self deprecating mind, the light was stronger, more radiant, and more beautiful than it ever was.
The path guided me on a never ending voyage to the depths of your heart. Though the path was long, it kept my ears clear and my vision sharp. I was able to see love in the purest form. The way the water brushed against the rocks reminded me of the times your skin brushed along mine, so vulnerable and so close. The way the sun hid behind the clouds reminded me of how you used to hide behind the covers when you felt afraid of your inner thoughts. Every step I took was a new surprise as I peeled back a different construct of your mind, allowing me to admire and learn the source of your insecurities. Although the path was long and tiring, and at times made me want to give up, each checkpoint held a new breakthrough, uncovering more of your love, motivating me to keep going. The path guided me on a never ending voyage to the depths of your heart, I won’t stop now, I won’t give up!
It sat heavy in my stomach, an emotion without a home. Begging it to leave, to abandon me, it sat idol, pinching at me with a fork, disrupting my every move. Running only took me so far, it was not working anymore since no matter how far I ran it always caught me bringing me back to the same spot. Kneeling down on one leg, I forfeited. The emotion stood, demanding attention, demanding to be felt. It dispersed its presence starting in my mind, carrying itself through my heart all the way down to my legs. The feeling was unique, a little bit of sadness followed by a lot of happiness. A home was built as I felt weightless, with the most clarity I have had in a while. Life is good!