You knew what you were doing when you led me pass your boundaries to the very center of your world. The depths of your heart into the forgiving fortress of your soul. I’ve always sensed your pleasure to live, but I never saw it until now and wow is it bright. It is everything I thought it was and then some. I couldn’t have dreamt of anything like it because my mind never stored any visuals that were so amazing, so gorgeous, breathtaking. Although I’ve been alive for decades, it feels like today was the day I just started living, thank you!
I can’t take my eyes off your style of movements. Each plan of action carried out with the most grace, expressing a need without being needy. I adore the way you complete yourself, the way you fit into your own shoes and the way you carry your heart in the words that you speak and the love you give day in an day out. You are the realest and will always be my idol.
Please stay with me until the fear of uncertainty goes away. I am much too attached to your presence, it is your light that I attach to. Even though it is sad for me, but your light is my darkness. I know your light will become my light when I learn how to shine my own. Until then, give me space, allow me to transform. Allow me to evolve, when the time is perfect, we will shine together and multiply consciousness. You are my biggest role model, I am your biggest fan. Support me, and when the time is right, shine with me because I know I will shine with you.
Delivering yourself to destiny is only deserved if you desire it. A long test, time and time again, lackluster. To most people this was okay, to others it was unacceptable. Barely achieving, a cheated destiny, a D- was passing, but wasn’t sharp enough to cut it. It was then that a whole heart could never be full without a full ambition and a full ambition was the first step to the script of destiny. The only policy is the truth to yourself, and wondering instead of doing is the opposite of the golden ticket. Delivering yourself to destiny is only deserved if you desire it.
It is when you are with me that I can’t see. I can’t see the obstacles that stand in front of my day to day routine. I can’t see the dark clouds of past relationships that used to hover over me like a plane hovers over the airport. I can’t see the sadness that other people had accustomed me to. I can’t see the helplessness of my coworkers. I can’t see anything, but the vibrant power of your love. It is when you are with me that I can’t see.
I’m sorry but I always get this way sometimes, I take things personal when I am free, I am stubborn when I’m selfless, I am confined to freedom, I am tired of being awake, I am too awake when I feel tired, I feel like things fall into place when they don’t work out, I feel like you make your own destiny when things don’t work out. Why do I feel happy when I am sad? Why do I feel sad when I am happy? Why does the shortest road lead to greatness? Why does the longest road lead to hardships? I tried fast forwarding to the past but instead I rewinded to the future, on the journey I cruised along a rocky path and then stumbled along the smooth pavement, my dream filled with ghosts was overtaken by my nightmare filled with spirits, through all the highs that felt like lows and all the lows that felt like highs, a duality of two opposites is always best in balance as one.
Filled to the top, your heart never cheats abundance. It couldn’t cheat even if it wanted to because it only knows authenticity. At times your mind will convince you of things you need but your heart stays full, pumping love throughout your body, marinading every organ with love and joy. Emptiness will never be an option because your heart never cheats love.
I can’t stop walking away from your future so I walk towards your past. The way your heart cries for love turns me into a magnet attracted to the helplessness you have learned. As you long for my presence, I try to run but I slip, I try to hide but I’m exposed. There is nothing left to do, I am meant to fix you, or at least help you. I sit here fully exposed, open enough to keep you from closing. I am here. Hello there.
I was once invigorated by the way the buildings antennae’s hid behind the clouds. I used to think they were afraid to come out. The same way the man was afraid to show his love. He thought he didn’t deserve to show love, he didn’t know what it was like to love unconditionally. So he too would sympathize with the antennas instead ducking behind pillows and only expressing his real self when he was behind closed doors. He was all too familiar with the suppression’s of the city until the sun came out and the clouds went away. The antennas were fully exposed and he felt alone. No one left to sympathize with, no company left to share his misery with. He knew he had to grow, he knew he had to let his love shine. He stuck his head out the window and from the depths of his vocal cords screamed the biggest “I love you!!!” for the whole city to hear. His journey had started, transcendence was in his future.
You are and always will remain the final piece. Fitting into my destiny like a fluffed up night gown fits onto the body of an angel. I will always remember you because it is impossible for me to forget you. If the universe came to an end, I would be at the final wall waiting for you, emotionless at first, suppression was always my thing. But before the light goes out, whether it’s two seconds, one second, or a fraction of a second, when it’s all said and done, my smile will burn bright.