It’s Fine I Never Needed Them Anyway

It’s fine, I never needed them anyway can only take you so far its best to put down that drink and remove yourself from the bar.

It’s only a matter of time til your pride runs out of stamina and your ego hits a wall, when the day is said and done it is up to your heart to be the one to call.

Although they weren’t always fair, they were always there.

The things they did were not okay but they still were there to say hello how was your day?

Running to peace, you went the wrong way. Unlimited attempts to keep painful thoughts at bay.

You were avoidant, you put on a front, you made excuses, you weren’t upfront.

You were in an uncontrolled spiral, looking for home base. It took you years and years to decide you wanted to go the right way.

Thoughts grew darker, heart grew sharper, everything you thought you were no longer defined you, god by you side, you no longer hide, it has always been you two, together you will surrender to the heavens above and allow forgiveness to smother you with love.

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Proposing to Angels

Unfaithful kings and broken wings, I search for you to see the brighter things, cherish me in the crispiest cold springs, until love is served from what the sun brings, and men propose to angels with the prettiest rings.

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My Independency Was Your Grounding

Dirty influences and a bottle of wine. Hard to keep you out of my mind, I still fall asleep. You couldn’t afford sobriety, addictions made you broke. Take what you need, I’m steady, take what you want, I’m golden. Convincing myself til night rolls around and the dusk offers loneliness. The sun gone, I stay lit, a bright candle. You use me to read, to learn, I guide you relentlessly, I almost forget to guide myself. A codependent light can only go so far until the light centers itself back on its source and regains its virility. Like an island filled with brush, I center myself from all lacking energies. My independency becomes your grounding, I hope you grow, I hope you dream, I hope you learn. Bask yourself in ambition, be my twin, grow next to me. I want to see you dance, like the last flower in the field, roots too strong to decay, forever standing sturdy. You will be the lesson for the next, a key for the broken door, opening the fences in minds that have kept their truest selves hidden from the light. You will transform the world, I will give you the energy!

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5 Times Out Of 10

5 times out of 10 I dream of a memory with you. The other half I wonder, in efforts to get back to the fantasy. A perfected plan for perfection, take me back to nostalgia. Copy and paste my past memories to my present state and carry it into my future until all of it is smothered and decorated with the purest form of love. When all is achieved, I will be, we will all be.

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I Think Of The Time

I insert my earplugs in efforts to drown out the world, I am now drowning in my own thoughts.

I think of the time the sun shined through the naked sky, no clouds, just blue.

I think of the time the rain fell so hard, like the drops were being shot out of a cannon.

I think of the time I sat on the swing as a child, innocent and naive to the futures purpose.

I think of the time I felt complete, laughing, smiling.

I think of the time they told me I was a pawn in life.

I think of the time I knew they were wrong.

I think of the time I was an impact on this world, not an impact that put a dent on the world but an impact that took the dent out.

I think of the time I sat on the benches by the beach doing my best to see the world spin.

I think of the time you sat in my arms, all complete, the opposite of heartless.

I think of the time we were in love, you comforting me like a sweater in the cold and me completing you like the last piece to a puzzle.

I think of the time I questioned my purpose only to find the answer is inevitable.

I think of the time my destiny was lit, similar to the only star shining in the absent night.

I think of the time I couldn’t sleep, not thoughtful but thoughtfull.

I think of the time I couldn’t get out of bed, thoughtfull and thoughtless playing tug o war.

I think of the time I went wild for your touch, almost losing my mind.

I think of the time I forced myself to get out of my head, taking my earplugs out, and listening to what the world had to say. I can breathe now, I am not drowning anymore.

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The City Pt. 7

The city lies comfortably congested on the pre winter evening. They thought they were sprinting to their destiny but they instead were running from their past. Amidst it all, cars drive, unknowing of their destination. People walk, confused intentions from the wrong source. Will today be better than the last or will it be a repeat of what tomorrow is going to be? Some things are better unknown, but a journey is better on repeat. A repeat of love and a continuous flow of hope and faith hiding in the cracks between the buildings and the pavement in the city streets. We think we are looking but instead we mimic the city sunset, trying out best to stay lit as we unconsciously hide behind buildings. A shadow of what seems to be never ending casts over, will we shine longer tomorrow? Will we have it in us to guide the way? The city lies comfortably congested on the pre winter evening. They thought they were sprinting to their destiny but they instead were running from their past.

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Love More

We love each other but we never say it,

We want to talk but we only text,

We want to hug but we never touch,

We want to be happy but we never smile,

We want commitment but we always run,

We want to forgive but we always sabotage.

We want less hate, so we must love more.

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You Are Complete

Horror movies and Bluetooth, we used to ride all night, to the vibes of a night summer breeze and a twinkle in our eyes. You joked with me and made fun of me, I called you names in attempt to vibe with you. Our only way of showing love, our systems faltered. Unconditional love was that of a mystery. A mystery we couldn’t figure out. I know if you could take it all back you would look beyond that mystery and show all the unconditional love you had. You would tell me your darkest times and tell me where your light resides. For you are open now, you found yourself, you are complete.

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You Were My Chorus

I was the verse you were the chorus, I did my best to be strong on my own, speak my own words and move in love , but when it was all said and done I always came back to you.

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The City Pt. 6

You aren’t even missing me, but if I had to kneel down in front of the lights of every window in this city for you to see how my heart relentlessly beats for you I would. I am purely devoted and effortlessly committed to making you see me, making you notice me, acknowledge and validating me for who I am. Like this city, I sense you only worry about the way people look out the window, the way they hide themselves and do their best to feel safe. That is not me anymore, for I have come to the city to rescue you. I am a knight, and although I am not in shining armor, I am in a button down and a nice pair of khakis that I got at the local goodwill. It is not that I couldn’t afford anything else, but I am done with the materials. This city can be your friend or it can be your enemy, the moment you attach to it is the moment you and I are broke. Stay within yourself and follow your heart for I can’t save you, but I can help bring you back to the person you were meant to be. Bless your soul and bless this city, I believe in both of you.

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